I just don't want to.
I like the ghost.
Maybe I'll keep it until December.
I don't like typical Christmas décor and stuff. I like goth witchy yule stuff.
I'm not a goth witch of any religious leaning. I just like the more natural vibe of Yule and the darker Victorian era style of Christmas. I don't like the red and green color scheme. Or Santa. Sorry I really don't like the American version of Santa and honestly, not overly impressed with the Euro Father Christmas, but, I do like the colors and the cloak.
Right now, the Halloween stuff is still up, with the fall stuff, and we've started adding the Christmas stuff. No one seems interested in taking down the Halloween stuff. Like we have nutcrackers and Jack o'lanterns on the same shelf.
And I don't hate it.
The Christmas tree is black after all. And all of the Target birds have been wired to the limbs, no matter what season they come from.
It's like, you know what, screw it. Just do whatever makes you happy now. Life is short. Fuck tradition.
SIGHS!
Sooo, it's been a week. How are we all coping?
I'm going to say, not well, but life indeed does go on. Next year will come soon enough. Right now we're just going through the motions but I think the numb is wearing off.
If you don't have trans kids or kids in school, I'm sure you're rolling your eyes right now. Saying grow up. Right now, my trans college student is in deep mourning. Next year they may not even be able to get funding for school. Next year their rights will no longer exist. Not even as their assigned birth gender. Honestly, if it doesn't affect you, and you don't care then just fuck right the hell off. I don't want you in my life. Hell, next year I could be "rounded up" for what I've written. Because you fucked around we're all in waiting mode to the finding out stage of how bad you've screwed us all, and that includes you, but you're not ready to hear that yet.
Anyway, I feel dark and gloomy. It's dark and gloomy outside. Pretty sure I'll be homeless at the end of the month, but hey, fuck my feelings right?
Choices have been made, by me, if you haven't been keeping up. I'm pulling all of my books from Amazon as they leave Kindle Unlimited. I'd like to go through and arrange new covers for most of them, and discreet print covers for all of them. Can't afford to do a single one. If you'd like to help me out with that I'll post my Ko-fi and Venmo links, I need 100 per e-cover and 200 for print wrap cover. I'd like to start with Under a Crescent Moon, then Shift in Time. Followed by all stand alone books in order of naked chestdom.
I'd like to point out that I might be wrong about the purge of naked chest covers that will begin next year, but since every single book that I have a naked chest on is already relegated to the erotica dungeon on Amazon, I'm pretty sure I'm not. I know authors of gay fiction are having their Patreons marked as adult content and removed from search. I know certain funding sites are already moving to block content, which is why I disappeared a certain book completely.
You like erotica? Well, we're about to find out if it's even going to be legal next year. Read the Project 2025 stuff. It's there. I'm not reaching. I'm anticipating.
The dystopian nightmare books are about to be moved to non-fiction.
But that's next year's problem. This year is for pulling my house out of foreclosure and trying to rebuild some kind of income. It's keeping my trans children alive. It's for not giving a fuck about what other people think of me. Grin and pretend you're not a fucking moron Mercy is gone.
I'd like to do so many things. I'm just looking for the how and where to do it. For now I'm trending to getting out of the KU trap. Putting my books back into Kobo and Kobo Plus and getting print books out for when the time comes that online books cease to exist. If you have books and other digital media don't close your accounts, you'll lose your libraries. Buy directly from indie authors when you can. That's the best I can say right now until we know how bad it's going to be.
I would say Peace right now, but I'm pretty sure I'll never say that again.
Mercy
Links to follow: Yes the Amazon links are affiliate links and I'm legally obligated to tell you that.
Venmo (last 4 digits of phone number are 3340 if they ask)
Books leaving Amazon on the 23rd
If you're still here, thank you for your support and for not voting to fuck us all up.
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